Praise God from Whom all Blessings Flow!

Happy New Year!

And I just *had* to share my delight.

In October I attended a writer’s workshop where I recieved back my novel’s first-chapter that had be reviewed and commented on by one of the editors present. For almost three months now I’ve thought my folder from there– holding both the marked-up manuscript and my skip-the-slush-pile cards– had been thrown away.

But I found it this morning.

I’ve been re-organizing my bookshelves (what do you do for a thrill?) and found it buried on a bottom shelf.

All I could say was, “Bless God! Bless God! Bless God!”

I brought out the cards and plopped them in front of Jay. Natasha asked what they were and I said Jay would tell her. He read them, only half paying attention, and two beats later the light went on and he was excited too. (“I’m so happy for you!”)

He had wondered if he was the one who had thrown it away during a house blitz.

Yes and (Na)No

I am still working on my novel in a new way, but I’ve let go the idea of making 50,000 words this year (meaning in this year’s event– the 30 days).

My home and children are calling me in new ways, and I don’t want to neglect that call.

At the same time, I feel a need to get my first draft finished soon enough to respond to an editor’s interest while she still remembers me. My first chapters have changed enough that I can’t trust she’ll recognize me by the work.

So here is my new(est) quandary: finding contentment despite the unknown– in every realm.

Will NaNo continue this year?

I’m getting the ‘I’m sick of this and want to move on‘s already. I got these last year too, maybe a couple days further in. I produced over 1500 words today, and a two-page outline with a much tighter story than last year, and all I can think is how un-human I feel. How my house needs work and my children need prayer (this after a lovely morning together, so I’m thinking it could all be the tireds).

Maybe I should stop reading Stein (Ooo! Sorry Kaye! I do like it!), because it automatically starts my inner editor, and that’s just killing my desire to put words down– it seems more focussed on untangling and adding meaning to the structure than actually writing the story.

Last year I kept going because Jay said it was important. And because I had between 5 and 12 people I’d been talking it up with since October began. Now I don’t know. Part of me just wants to quit before I’m really started. Maybe it’ll come down again to whether this is important to Jay. I don’t know now if it’s important enough to me.

This may all change after a good night’s sleep. Jay asked me today as he got out of the car, “Are you sure you’ll be okay? You didn’t get much sleep.” I laughed and said, “Well, it’s moot now, you’ve already decided to go to work.”

So we had a lovely morning visiting animals all around town. Of course, it did nothing to diminish my desire for my own… But the children enjoyed it, and I enjoyed watching their delight, and seeing that even Elisha (18-months) is learning gentleness– he was adorable with the kitties, and seems to have a baby-version of the cat sign now (stroking his cheek instead of drawing out the whiskers).

Crashing now– hoping I don’t get the chance to put up half my day’s word-count before 4 a.m. this time…

Back in Compliance Again

So I started reading Stein on Writing last night (Hi Kaye).

My husband was reading Eragon and occasionally gave me updates on inconsistencies and mapping problems he said evidenced the author’s inexperience (i.e., his youth). Jay’s still enjoying the story, though.

I haven’t read it yet (picked it up at the used-book store and Jay got it first.)

After his comment about rivers running up-hill I submitted a plea that he draw me a map of my story. I don’t know how big a sin it is, but I have no image of my story’s land, and, as my husband has noted before in frustration, I’m not a natural at reading them either.

Basically the reading confirmed my theory that my Lindorm story is primarily plot-driven rather than character-driven. Especially after the characterization chapters, I’ve decided that I’m going to re-start my novel and write it character-driven instead.

This will mean I’m following the rules again (new work on November 1), give me a new angle, and assuming it goes to the same conclusion (something for which I suppose I have no guarantee) I expect to combine the two versions– which I hope will allow me to reach my goal of having a completed (entire) first draft.

The interesting thing to me is that as my characters have fleshed out they beg for new and bigger parts. I think the folktale structure will survive, but it will be richer and more reasonable. I already have parts where my characters are very transparent, but as I’ve never focused specifically on character as I’m writing, that’s what I want to do this time.

Novel Prep Exercise #1

Theoretically I was supposed to do this at the NaNo meeting this afternoon, but I got off on the inconcrete randomness of happenings instead of staying focussed on my main Character, so for anybody who wondered: Yes, I am doing NaNoWriMo again this year, but it will be to finish the novel I started last year.

(Competition is good for me– and I like to get this 1st-draft stage over with quickly).

Main Character Exercise

  • Main character’s name: Linnea
  • One-Sentence Summary of MC’s storyline: A crippled weaver finds out after she marries her prince that a powerful djinn holds a grudge against her new family and is working to destroy them.
  • MC’s motivation (what she wants abstractly): Peace and security
  • MC’s goal (what she wants concretely): to protect her children and confirm her husband’s innocence
  • MC’s conflict (what keeps her from reaching this goal): miscommunication and the djinn’s active interference
  • MC’s epiphany (what she learns/how she changes): Action and inaction are both choices, and learning who to trust can mean the difference between life and death.
  • One-Paragraph summary of MC’s storyline:
    • Linnea marries her prince and begins “blending” a family, but her happily ever after is disrupted when her husband leaves to help rescue a kidnapped family member. While he is away a letter with his seal orders her execution. Escaping with her children she hides in the forest and meets the djinn who arraigned the kidnapping, seeking to eliminate the royal family. In a series of confrontations Linnea must decide whether to get involved, and how to destroy the djinn’s threat.

Heroism Speech

Seeing as I loved it, I’m linking it.  Since a number of you seem to find my interests intriuging enough to look into as well, I offer Heroes in Storytelling by Barbara Nicoloski.

It is the outline of a speech given by a Catholic scriptwriter (Nicoloski).  Good stuff and some good writing prompts– especially when you get down to sections 8 (“The world needs from us:”) and… 8 (“Let’s create a hero story”).

Definitely got me thinking some more.  I appreciated her thoughts greatly.

Sabbatical?

In case anyone’s noticed how slow it’s been lately: I have dived back into reading, writing, and revising YA (particularly my novel).

I’ve been mostly avoiding blog-reading and blog-writing because it’s too easy to become like the company one keeps, and that type of writing is distinctly different from where my heart and passions are right now.

I’m not sure when or how often I’ll be posting for a while. Enjoy the archives! ;)

Discovered a new Character!

So I’m working my way through Nehemiah, and find myself pulling storytelling and character-building/revealing principles from it as I go along.

Some stuff about Nehemiah combined with an edge character that I knew needed something more to do. A whole subplot developed between naming him a few weeks ago and Bible study a few days ago.

I love how a whole character stepped out of a name (though at this point I think the name– Tyko– will have to go). The bit from Nehemiah didn’t change him, just brought his basic nature–perceptive but humble– into sharper focus.

He’s got quite a dashing role now, and even a sweetheart.

It’s fun to be able to include a new POV, and he’s useful too. He is both sympathetic to the main character (without being romantically involved) and staying behind when she journeys, so we can still see what happens after she leaves.

We’re All Psych Cases– or at least sinners

I am doing some light research about some psychological issues for my novels (latest article, “The mystery of loving an abuser”). One of my novels has a side-character enmeshed in an unhealthy relationship, and the protagonist in a different novel avoids something similar.

Both times, though, just trying to figure out how all these minds work and the interplay just fascinates me.

It made me think of an observation I made after reading a blog post about discovering Narcissistic Personality Disorder.

Maybe it’s just me, but whenever I read descriptions like this I get a twinge, seeing shadows of myself. But then I remind myself that things like wanting to feel significant and noticed are normal parts of being human, and are not in themselves unhealthy.

I never cease to be impressed by the appearance that nearly every problem or disorder is the extreme of a normal human feeling and/or a natural part of growing up that didn’t pass in its proper time.

I think the hardest part about learning more about these issues is discovering how statistically irredeemable people with these problems are.

I don’t like irredeemable.

I think I would have been like Frodo with Smeagle (in Lord of the Rings)– it would have scared the snot out of me, and I wouldn’t have have the guts to pull it off without a Sam to share watches with, but I’d have wanted to risk it.

When we remember that all sin is Sin in God’s eyes, and that all sin separates us from God, hoping for the villain’s redemption is maybe a way of hoping for our own.

When there is hope for him, there is hope for me, you see?

It also holds out a hope for those I love that I know are still separated from God.

Is anything too hard for the Lord?