I got some books about Charlotte Mason from the library today. Along with a book that was very helpful when I used it two years ago. I’m hoping for some solidity in homeschooling expectations and help with my current sleep-debt.
Obviously my high-minded “reading-plan” has gone out the window. For now.
Not that it actually bothers me. Just that I’m continuing on as I have been. Doing what I want most to do at the moment.
It works for me a lot of the time, but calling it what it is (immediate gratification) always makes me uncomfortable.
I recognize it is a pattern of behavior– maybe even a mindset– that I struggle with, but because it works more than half the time, it is a very hard habit to break.
Those people who don’t want to talk to their kids about pot because it makes them feel like hypocrites? That’s the way I feel sometimes when I ask the girls to set something aside for later.
By the same token, I still do it, hoping they won’t end up with the same struggle I have. It’s hard to decide what to do sometimes.
Try to think of it this way: it works but probably at the sacrifice of something else and with mediocrity. For instance, you lost sleep which isn’t ideal. Well, I don’t know. Despite the fact I am a perfectionist, I do not do things the most efficient way, either. But maybe it will help you. :) Good luck!